Finally a Fiancée!!

I have dreamt about getting married for as long as I can remember. Since I was a little girl, I have imagined how long the train on my dress would be, what my vail would look like, hair half-up, and a fairytale woodland wedding. To say I get to live out my dream next October makes me feel something I have never felt before. It's indescribable in a sense. It's excitement mixed with security but also a hint of curiosity. I am curious to see if I will be a good wife and mom, but I know I will be because that's all I have ever wanted. 

Cam and I always get asked by those we meet what our story is: how did we cross paths, what dress us to each other, where did we get engaged, etc. Truth is, this is my favorite story to tell. I feel like I don't have a lot of girlfriends I can obsess over this type of lovey-dovey stuff with, and I have certainly talked my mom's ear off about my wedding and how I want it to go. I figured writing about it here will benefit both me and those in my life, since I tend to talk about the same thing a lot when I am excited about it. I can see how it can be a little... annoying. But here is a little story of December 30th, 2023.

Rewind to the night Came and I first kissed, July 4th, 2022. We had some drinks and were hanging with some friends eating cereal at midnight. He drunkenly took a picture of us and posted it on one of his socials with the caption "husband and wife things". I told him I can't be his wife if he doesn't know my ring size. I specifically said "Size 7, emerald cut. You will need to know that one day". Sure enough, he did. Fast forward to November of that year, Cam wanted to propose to me. I told him I needed to live with him first to get a feel if we would be able to truly tolerate each other in the long run. Since Cam and I had to endure being 8,000 miles apart for the first 8 months of our relationship, I really did not know if we would be compatible living together. I look back now and kick myself for thinking that. I got a good taste of what living with him was like when I went and stayed the month of August 2022 in Guam with him. The fact that my parents let me go see a boy across the world I met three weeks prior never fails to amaze me, but I am eternally grateful they did because look how that turned out!!! So yeah, I told him he had to wait initially, but the way things played out was perfect. Cam asked me to marry him in Boston, a city that I weirdly feel connected to. Maybe it is because I spent a good chunk of my childhood there, my family was initially from there, and I just think the history attached to the city and area resonates with me. Cam knew this and knew that we did not have to go to some extravagant and expensive tropical island to ask me a question. I would say yes to anywhere, but instead a place that would mean something to us. When we got to the city that day, we stopped first at the Museum of Science. After spending a couple hours there and getting irritated at all the unsupervised children reeking havoc, we decided to go for a walk around the harbor before going to dinner. To be honest, I knew it was coming and Cam could not have made it any more obvious. With that being said, it was still perfect, and I still bawled my eyes out. We were awkwardly walking slowly and I knew he was trying to wait for the people in front of us to get a move on. They weren't really catching the hint at first, so we just stood there for a few minutes. We walked to the perfect spot on the boardwalk where you could face the city and see all of the buildings. Cam set his phone down claiming to take a timed picture, but I saw him press record. As soon as he faced me, I froze. The 5 seconds it took for him to get the ring out of his uncooperative jacket pocket felt like 10 minutes. I felt like I was too emotionless, too still, when in reality, I quite literally could not move my body. I wanted this for so long, and I wanted it with him. Down on one knee, he told me he would finally be able to put the phrase "size 7, emerald cut" to good use. He never forgot it, and I then knew that we both knew it was each other from the day we met. The video he took did not have the best audio and when showing our friends and family, it was hard for them to make out what he said to me. I feel as if that made the video and moment even more intimate. Only I would truly ever hear exactly what Cam said and how it said it. So yeah, our engagement story and the story of how we met are my favorite to tell and always will be. I believe that there were some angels watching over us gravitating towards each other, there had to have been. Just the circumstances on how we met could not have been coincidence. It was too amazing. But I will leave that for another post. That will be a long one....