Lost

 I used to be a happy kid

I can’t even remember where everything went wrong

One day I was living the dream

And the next

I was living a complete nightmare

Just like that

Everything became less exciting

Playing outside with your friends, your friendships,  your birthday

Now I am this lonely girl sitting alone in her room every weekend

While I see everyone I went to school with hanging out with each other

Partying and not a care in the world

I wish that could be me

But I am too complicated

I want my excitement back

When I’m in the backseat of a driving car

I want to look out the window and pretend I’m in a music video again

I want to feel the excitement of getting my license again

I wish I could watch Titanic for the first time again

I wish I could go back and acknowledge the excitement all these things in the world can bring

But now I just sit here

Silently screaming

Hoping someone can read my mind because I no longer express my feelings

The day I feel like someone truly loves me will be the day poets forget how to rhyme