Just Like The Rest

 How could I be so stupid

To think you were ever worthy of my love?

You got what you wanted from me and dipped

I’ll give you some credit,

Your acting skills are amazing

I really believed you cared

Especially when we would go to our spot on top of that parking garage and talk for hours looking at the stars

You told me you were so glad you met me and i brought you a type of happiness you’ve never felt before

I told myself that it was too good to be true

Frankly, it wasn’t good at all

It was all a lie

You needed me to believe you cared so id let you in

You had no intentions of staying

And i convinced myself otherwise because i wasn’t ready to swallow that pill

I feel bad to the next guy who genuinely wants me

And doesn’t want to use or take advantage of me

I feel bad because i am going to want to trust him so badly, but i never will because of the lies you fed me

So thank you for leaving me destroyed after you got what you wanted

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You were never capable of handling my love

I think i knew that from the start

I was so desperate to feel something that i ignored you calling me names behind my back to your friends

I told myself you didn’t mean it and you were just trying to act cool

How dare i disrespect myself like that by letting myself waste my time on you

Deep down i knew you were a piece of shit

But then again, i was so tired and needed a thrill in my life

I told myself “oh i can change him” because of all the awful things i knew you did to your ex

Why did i think that a person like you could ever change for the better

You are incapable of possessing a reciprocated love

You will know you messed up in time when you have absolutely nothing let

And i on the other hand will be thriving with a man who always puts me first and reciprocates the type of love i provide to him