Half Empty

 Lately, the days have been feeling extra long

There is nothing I look forward to anymore

My phone vibrates and I don't even have the urge to check it

I have a bad habit of getting my happiness from other people

I miss having a crush

I miss sending good morning texts and giving kisses goodbye

I miss these things dearly but I never did them with the right people

The thing keeping me going is the hope that one day I do find the right person

I can't even imagine what being loved properly feels like

I've been surrounded by people for my entire life

But that doesn’t mean I'm not lonely

I've been lonely for far too long

That i fear when the day comes where I finally meet someone who lights up my life, I won’t know how to handle it